Sunday, September 07, 2003
Counting The Hours
So close....it’s so close I can taste it. I’ve been counting it down for a little over a week now--you know, that silly thing you do like when you were a kid waiting for Christmas to arrive?
“This is the last weekend!” or
“I will only sleep in here two more nights and then it’s here!”
You know?..............................................................................
Oh. It’s just me? Well surely you count the hours right? Minutes, seconds....?
Work with me people!
It’s a weird feeling to sit in this place with little of my own. My stuff, my things, my material goods that show off my life, my personality, my comfort....some of it locked up tightly and guarded in some warehouse I’ve never visited....some of it sitting in a trash heap somewhere, collecting flies. At least I have my computer and some books...I’d probably go crazy without them.
Nonetheless, even though the feeling is a tad unsettling, what lays before me is on such a grand scale that I haven’t quite fully grasped it. I seek adventure, I like to travel, I love to meet new people. All of these desires will be fulfilled in the coming week. It’s a little scary at the same time....but I’ve never allowed fear to stop me before. Well, one thing I do...but we don’t need to go over that....again.
Many of you out there have written me telling me how brave I am. Feels weird to have someone call you that when you have the heart of a thrill seeker beating strongly inside of you. I’m not saving anyone, I’m not changing anything, I’m not making the world a better place....well, except maybe me...but it doesn’t feel like a brave act because the lack of exploration is simply intolerable to me.
There’s too much to see, too much to do, too much to find, too many places to visit to sit still.
No matter what happens, know that I am doing what makes me happy. I only hope that my posts following this move, this journey across America, will bring you some exhilaration as well.
It’s so close people........the juices of the quest are dripping into my jaws as we speak. Very, very soon, I will be able to reach up, take a massive bite and chew contentedly.
