I’ve sat here for about 15 minutes debating whether or not to write this entry. I’m torn between doing what I should do and doing what I want to do. Ok, ok, I won’t keep you in suspense.
I’ve tried one...two times in the past and the longest I made it was 5 days. I know I can do it but I just need a little “encouragement” to see this through. I’m not saying, “Oh, please stuff my comments section full of praise”, (although that’s appreciated). No, what I mean by encouragement is that I tell you, the public, and my pride will be far too mortified if I fail in front of everyone.
So.....
I have no more smokes in the house. I’m not going to the store. And I will just keep telling myself these things:
I hate the way it makes my house smell. (and I’m not technically supposed to be smoking in here anyway.)
I hate the way it tastes.
It costs too much and I can’t afford it. (although, what I am going to do is take all the money I would have spent on cigarettes and put it into savings...eventually moving it into an emergency mutual fund....blah blah)
I don’t want to sound like Marge Simpson’s sisters when I get older.
I don’t want to lose my voice and have to wear that voice box in my neck. (BLECH!!! I’ve seen it in real life...it’s gross!)
It’s bad for my teeth.
I don’t like having to go outside to smoke while my friends sit at the table in the restaurant.
I’m sure there are more reasons and appreciate any input. (yes, I know the health risks so if you want to stun me, make it graphic and make sure the facts are accurate.)
Oh, and before anyone says, “Just don’t become one of those jerk ex-smokers.” Too late. I already act like that. I can’t stand it when anyone else smokes around me. Aren’t I an ass? I hate cigarettes....they are disgusting, nasty, filthy, vile things. But I LOVE them too. Damn nicotine.
Oh, and I’m doing this cold turkey. I’ve seen too many co-workers try and fail using all those patches, gum, devices to punch holes in the filter, etc. When I’ve seen someone succeed, it has always been cold turkey. (yes, yes, I’m sure there are the few exceptions but I’m talking about ME! and my experiences.)
So, I know I’ll be fine the first couple of days. You won’t notice anything different. I’ve got my bag of Jolly-Rancher lollipops so I’ll be fine. It’s Days 4 and Day 5 that are going to suck.
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