Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Soon!
Ok, so I spoke with a certain person last night and have been reassured that the deal I’ve been hinting around about is going to happen, it’s just a matter of time when. He was talking about sooner rather than later and I have to say, I’m all for that.
I have already been given a project and I think I was psyching myself out, trying to make it perfect so that this person would see what incredible skills I have and my place would be a sure thing. I stressed myself out trying to get it perfect without much information and was actually starting to worry that maybe I don’t have what they need and they’ll see that I suck and say, “Oh....well, nevermind then.”
I got an email yesterday afternoon asking me to call as soon as possible. My first thought was, “Oh....he’s seen what I have done so far and is so not impressed and is about to lay it down for me. Breathe in.......ok, here we go.”
I called up and we discussed more about the potential opportunity and he made me feel better by saying two things:
“There is no right or wrong answer.” (I will only say it has to do with design and concept.)
“I’ve directed and managed people in this (field) for many years and I’m already aware of what your skills are and know that they are needed.”
Breathe out.
And he is talking about getting me started even sooner than he had said before. Meaning, on board full time. Meaning....well, I’ll save all that for later; you know, “after the check has cleared” as I like to say. But I’m feeling much better and as soon as I heard those two statements, I was suddenly very creative and knew much better what would work and what wouldn’t and felt a lot more relaxed about choices I was making.
It doesn’t have to be perfect the first time...this is the first stage, we go back to the client, “How does this look?” they decide they like this and that but want to change this and that and we do so.
But eventually, my part will entail MUCH more than that. Well, again, getting ahead of myself. Later, kids, later.
It is also a risk. But life is full of risks and sometimes those risks pay off big. This one seems like it might just take off and I am getting in on the ground floor. There is a potential to really succeed here. I hope this all goes well because if it does.......dudes.
Hopefully, very soon, I will be able to tell you all what it is because I will be doing it and I will be out of corporate America for good. It sounds like it’s not too far off now. Especially when he asked me if I need to give two weeks notice to my current employer.
That’s a pretty good sign.
At least I do one major part of my life pretty well. The relationship part? Apparently I suck at it. I’d rather be good at that part.....but, well, if I can’t have that, then I guess I’ll take the money.
Wish I could have both.
