Saturday, October 27, 2007
Oh Crap
I think I’m in deep. Who would have ever guessed that.
Now what am I going to do?
[update] I think most of you are suspecting correctly. It’s about a guy. It’s not a guy I’ve mentioned on here. It’s a guy I’ve kept to myself while I figured it out what the hell I was feeling over the past three months. And....I really didn’t want a relationship after that last guy. That last guy hurt me badly and I had decided f that. No more of that crap. And then there was this guy. But I didn’t pursue, fought it off, got all defensive with myself about it, tried to push him away hard, blah blah blah....and had finally admitted to him and myself that I like him.
And he treats me like...a princess. Not that I ask for that, but he does. And there’s a lot about him to like...and I’m a little concerned with how much I like him because man....I don’t need to feel any more pain like I did last year. Granted, these two are light years apart....this guy being way better but still!
STILL!
In other words, chicken shit Serenity is still kind of fighting it in her mind because.......she’s a chicken shit.
More later.
