Monday, November 05, 2007
Well.....Damn
So. For the past two weeks I’ve tried to find any excuse not to get all stupid but nothing is working. Any time I think I have a good one, I realize it’s just fear, not an actual, valid excuse.
Sigh. This guy is awesome. I threw out all kinds of road blocks for him...all kinds and do you know what he had the audacity to do? Dance around them and state, “Hi! I’m still here!”
Shit.
I don’t have a damn thing left in my arsenal. I’ve been on the look out for all kinds of character flaws or red flags, anything. My instincts that protect me are quiet and I have nothing. Nothing with which to say, “Ah HA! So there it is.” Been looking for months now and while of course no one is perfect and I’m not blind and dumb, I can’t find any thing that would be a deal breaker. In fact, all I’m finding are things that are drawing me closer....
He’s a spider, drawing me in to his web. Hmmm, I could use that...I don’t like spiders...yah! How dare he....do spidery things!
Except that his web is two arms wrapped around me that I happen to like very, very much.
Sigh. I’m doomed. I guess the handful of you out there who have been wanting to get all giddy despite my demands that you calm yourselves down may proceed to get all ridiculous now. I’ll be standing here watching you act retarded while rolling my eyes. Yah, yah...I really like this guy and he really likes me. Just say what dorky things you need to say and get it over with. Cripes.
